I don’t want to be an asshole or anything but sometimes I wonder what the fuck is WRONG WITH ME. i have serious body image issues like, okay, definitely not as bad as some people you know, i really don’t want to make it seem like my problems are ~worse or that i have an eating disorder because i don’t lol i really do not, but it’s just - body issues man. i hate hate hate myself so much, so much. i look at myself and want to scream and cry and throw up and claw off my skin and throw my face into a garbage bin and oh goddd it’s just. i am legitimately disgusted by myself. and it makes me ill, physically ill. but i am also SUPER good at self sabotage so i eat and eat and lay around and do the exact opposite of what i should be doing because apparently i’m still fourteen and love to hate myself. I DON’T THOUGH, I AM PROGRESSING I FUCKING SWEAR I am getting better at the not-sabotaging-myself but it’s still why is it still a problem.

logically i know that i’m 157 lbs and 5’10” and that’s perfectly reasonable and I have an acceptable BMI and really my face could be so much worse and I’m fine I’m fine I’m totally fine but sometimes I get irrational and want to drown in acid. 

okay. okay. don’t read this ever.